What is love

What is this, is it love or affection or long year gap.

‘I sometimes call it as the rumblings of the heart’

It was after 4 years, I met her on august 16^th 2010, had few talk and then been to a movie, when the movie is running, I never talked to her and after the movie we had a long walk about 5 kilometres.

It was actually late for what that I wanted to say, that is I had loved her.

Going to my hard disk opening drive brain and then Folder ‘Ambrosia’, she is my first girl friend, when I’m at schooling from 7^th to 10^th standard, I met her in 8^th class, became good friends and also with my friends. We had a lot of fun, and she was very caring about me, etched on your mind few funny things, I always liked her so much which my semi liquid state became a hard rock into Love, but what I was thinking at that age was, it’s just attraction and I don’t know what is love and how can I love her, one of my friend doubted that i was loving ambrosia, and told to her and when all these confusions happening around, i thought i may lose her so I went to her and told her im not in love with u, but in my heart I really love her, actually I’m a big coward. So what exactly is love, neither you nor I knew.

In my 11^th standard I had few crushes, vXXXXXXa, mXXXXa . We had a good friendship, vXXXXa looks beautiful, we never used to talk or share anything just from distant I liked her and same with my friend mXXXXa a funny good friend. The thing i missed ambrosia was my 11^th standard made everything horrible, I knew ambrosia shifted their house and why I didn’t met her after they shifted, I don’t know, later I thought of finding my ambrosia, searched little, then exams, didn’t do well, shifted to vignan college and then very very busy life, learned what all the educational values what all I missed, regained my knowledge I took a long year, Vinay, Vijay, Shasi bhushan, teja, sattish found some good friends. Vinay and Vijay are my old, school friends, the others new. Successfully completed my 12^th standard education with 80%, then I started my quest to find her with umesh and other friends, never found her, then I tried contacting many friends.

Spent my two years horribly, depressed no one cared me; it was just me to care about myself. Then my engineering 1^st year was completely disgusting and greatest of the horrible, i didn’t find any good loving and caring friend, went on and on, loneliness became my passion, i always used to be alone and used to think deeper and deeper and all the things happening. Only my country was with me all the time, giving me air, water, life, gifted me loneliness and many things. So decided my goals to my country and later learned about humanism.

Finally with help of shiresha and her friend i finally got her on 15^th august and we met on 16^th august.

One thing what i feel was, as long as i love her, it felt me like i'm loving myself. very good feeling of mine. I miss her a lot....

Guys is this love or what...please comment

thanks for reading

may be continued.....

anvesh kadimi